Teetering on the brink...

It is a new year today and I have been hoping for a miracle---that this would be the time I found my pixie dust. I am teetering on the edge... working so hard and yet not quite making it. But I didn't totally fail today, either and that leaves me with hope. Tomorrow is another day and I can keep trying---I WILL keep trying until I get this right.

I want to live. I don't know why yet, but I know I want to find out.

So... what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

scrambled eggs (2); grilled asparagus (10 spears)

Snack:

raspberry smoothie

Lunch:

leftover zucchini rice (small serving); a few bites of beef stoup

Impulse gorge:

fudge in fridge---I finally spit out the last of it and threw it all away

Later, I popped a handful of m&m's on the way through the livingroom (habit)

Dinner:

tuna sandwich on ezekiel english muffin with 1 slice of pepperjack cheese; milk

So there were some rough moments and many times I wanted to eat much more than this, especially throughout the evening... but I managed to stay clear of the kitchen.

I feel awful, but I know that I have tomorrow to try again...

And may tomorrow be better...