I made another tentative step down the road to success, whatever that means. I struggled most of the day with what to eat and how much to consume. In the end, I did okay, but it hasn't been easy and right now I'd like a hot fudge sundae or 3. The tentative step is that I made it to the gym today. It was awful and I hated much of it, but I did it. I hated seeing myself in the mirrors there. I hated the equipment and the crowds and the mind-numbing boredom... but I managed the elliptical machine for 7 and 1/2 minutes before my calves cramped, and then I moved on to an available treadmill for 25 minutes. My goal was a half hour of exercise, so I just made it. I am sore tonight... obviously I go faster on a treadmill than I do on the road or woods because I go a LOT longer when I walk naturally and i don't get this kind of sore. Hmm... how can I keep the gym interesting and not let it become about despising myself?
So... what did I eat today?
Breakfast:
ezekiel english muffin with peanutbutter and jam; milk
Snack:
blackberries
Lunch:
beef stoup
Snack:
cucumbers and carrots with dip; pistachios
Dinner:
I mashed potato; 2 slices grilled zucchini; broccoli; pan-fried salmon
I am in bed now so I practice sleeping and so I won't eat. One of my goals for the new year is to get more sleep and I need to learn to be a better sleeper...
May tomorrow be better...
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