I always have my doubts...
Will I be able to be successful at weight loss? Do I deserve it? Am I making progress or fooling myself? When I say I am the same person no matter my size, do I even believe it for a second?!
I sat there this evening eating a string of things I shouldn't, including chips that I didn't like yet couldn't stop eating. I torture myself with feelings of desire for food that I often don't enjoy. How sick is that? Really---how sick does a person have to be to live like this? Will I find redemption? Can I live with not finding it? And what kind of life is it without it?
So... what did I eat today?
Breakfast:
mocha coolatta---most of it; whole wheat bagel with egg, cheese, and sausage (I asked for no cheese but they put it on anyway)... I ate about 1/2
I was in a hurry to get to Oxbow so I ate junk for breakfast ~ YUCK!
Lunch:
Mike's at 2:00 ~ Yikes! scallops, shrimp, fries, onion rings
Snack:
2 cookies
Dinner:
small piece of steak; beans; summer slaw
Dessert:
ice cream, followed by a bran muffin, followed by 2 kinds of chips that I didn't like or enjoy but felt compelled to eat. When I eat like that I feel the most ashamed of who I am.
May tomorrow be better...
How can it be better?
PLAN!
THINK!
PREPARE!
DEVELOP HABITS!
WRITE EVERYTHING DOWN!
TRY NEW AND INTERESTING FOODS!
Get going before it's too late...