Working and not working...

Some of my ideas and thinking are working for me... helping me work toward my goal of weight loss and improved health. And some things are not working yet.

Today, for example, I thought about not going to DD because it really isn't good for me and I don't know as I love it all that much anyway. It's a habit and with me it's hard to tell if I crave something or just crave the habit... something to think about... Anyway, I ended up going on my way for a walk because I'd had a light lunch and no snack in the afternoon and I didn't want to be distracted by urges to eat (note I don't say hunger, as I really don't think I know what that is, for sure). So I got my coolatta and went for my walk... hmm...

So... what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

zucchini and onions saute; 2 scrambled eggs in butter

Snack:

cupcake in YT's before heading out with small group

Lunch:

kale soup (no more cupcakes, which were in the staff room ~ moment that "worked" for me)

Snack:

mocha coolatta with milk

Dinner:

fresh tomato from the garden; steak and onions in olive oil; mashed potato with butter; brussels sprouts

Nothing after dinner, though I thought about going out for an ice cream... and I thought about having yogurt and/or a peach... but in the end I decided I'd eaten enough for one day. Also, i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and I don't know whether she'll want to do a blood test or not so I figure I can't eat before 1:00... that should be interesting...

I am nervous about having a physical tomorrow. What does the weight gain mean? Am I sick and don't know it? What about the pain and weakness? And the depression? Oy! But at least it will be some answers, which might feel better than the growing worries in my mind.

May tomorrow be better...