I worked at thinking about eating much of today and did fairly well until the end. Social stress adds to my eating issues, and it makes me less attentive to what I am doing. Still, there was some progress today, even in the noticing...
So... what did I eat today?
Breakfast:
1 scrambled egg; 1 slice toast with butter; asparagus sauteed with onion
This is an example of thinking... I thought about 2 eggs and decided I could live with 1 and I did. Same with the toast ~ a single slice would do... and it did.
I never had a morning snack because I never got truly "hungry." I guess the protein did it's job and I was able to keep myself from eating just to eat.
Lunch:
whole wheat pasta with homemade veggie bolognese; kashi crackers with cheese (babybel)
More thinking here... there were cookies on the staff table. I "really" wanted one (or six!) but I told myself I was full enough for now and I could wait. It worked and it continued to work the 3-4 other times I passed through the room before going home.
More thinking as I went to Idylwilde to buy fruit instead of DD for coolatta. I wanted to do both, but talked myself into waiting until I got home to eat a fresh peach and plum instead. And as I went past the chips I talked myself out of getting those, too.
Snack:
peach; plum; wheat crackers (baked triscuit-type from TJ's) This last item was a kickback for the lack of chips, I think, but also as the start of stress (planning to go out).
Dinner:
Thai food with Michelle and Donna ~ fresh roll, brown rice with yellow curry and shrimp; some of Donna's Pad Thai. This last was hard/bad... not because I shouldn't have it, but because it causes me such shame to eat something that I think someone else thinks I shouldn't (even if it is in my imagination!). And once I start thinking like that, it only gets worse and I am compelled to eat the "dangerous" item (and usually much more). At least I can say that I stopped here this time...
May tomorrow be better...