Thursday, July 22, 2010

Veering back on course...

... I hope...
I have been away and I am still away, but I am trying to get back to recording my eating. I am toying with the idea of seeing my doctor earlier than my October scheduled physical because I am beginning to suspect that my weight gain may not be all about eating. I have gained so much and when I think of it, I am not really eating that much more. I mean, I do cheat... but I always cheated, even when I was losing two pounds a week. I've been so busy beating myself up about the weight gain, feeling like a total loser and loathing my lack of control, that I never considered that there could something medical contributing to the problem. And maybe there isn't, but I should eliminate the possibility and at least let my doctor in on the weight gain trouble... and the continued depression... despite therapy... God, I am pitiful!

But I digress...

So... what did I eat today?

Breakfast:
bran muffin and water

then I went kayaking for hours...

Snack:
mocha coolatta because I was thirsty and starving (after 1:00 sometime...)

Late lunch:
lobster roll and a few french fries (I should've told the woman no thank you, but once I had them I had to eat some...)

Dinner:
boiled hot dog, potato salad, cole slaw... I made the potato salad and the cole slaw was a light summery one from hannaford's.... very good...

I am about to have some ice cream for "dessert" or as a bedtime snack, whichever this might be...

May tomorrow be better...

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