Weary of failure...

I just can't seem to get a grip. I started out well today and felt positive, but as the day progressed, I started slipping down the proverbial slope and all was lost. And I feel horrible about it, but that doesn't seem to help. I looked at my thighs this evening and I was disgusted. HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?! I find myself missing my "thinner" body so much that it hurts. I didn't appreciate it then and thought I was still too fat, but OMG! Now I remember what disgusting is! Oh, how the mighty have fallen! And I am in so much pain... it can't all be from the added weight, but I am afraid to go to the doctor. Stupid, I know. But I can't take any more bad news right now...

So, what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

yogurt smoothie; blueberry muffin

Lunch:

BBQ Ranch Chicken Salad at CF

Dessert:

kiddie frozen yogurt at Kimball's on the way home from grocery shopping

As Iwas putting groceries away, I nibbled a little on leftover pork in fridge...

Snack:

mint candies and two small bowls of goldfish at work while I was changing Elaine's Room

Dinner:

small pizza with caramelized onions and roasted peppers ~ I ate the entire pizza. I was full after three slices, but I didn't want to save it and re-heat it and be disappointed, so I ate it and ended up disappointed in myself. UGH!

EXERCISE:

Walk at Pratt's Brook with Ryan's family

Weight: 252 OMG!