Thinking...

I am not there yet, but I did a lot of thinking today... and practicing being reasonable, at least a little. I had troubles with my emotions and I had to concentrate to stay "together," but the day is over and I am still here, so I'll take it. I never got back to work so there will be a big mess waiting for me tomorrow, but that's okay...

So, what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

2 blueberry muffins; 12 ounces skim milk

Lunch:

leftover pulled pork; sweet potato (about 1/3); mashed turnip that I made fresh

Snack:

small ice cream that wasn't all that small at ice cream stand in Chelmsford center

Dinner:

bread and butter; dinner salad with italian dressing; lobster and shrimp fra diavlo at The Chateau

Exercise:

Bike trail from Westford line to Chelmsford center and back. I got caught in a bit of a rumble with thunder and some rain but it was fine and worth the effort. My knees are really sore tonight and it is hard to do stairs or get out of a chair, but if I don't exercise I'll never manage this weight loss effort. Hmm...

The day was a lot of thinking, as I said. I wanted to eat all day and I mostly talked myself out of things. It's not the end of the world if I don't eat everything I want... or so I try to tell myself... Another mantra I am trying is "I can wait..." I did some cooking and some shopping so I have some healthy choices to get my week rolling. I have salad stuff, but I'll need to prepare them tomorrow. I just couldn't face more chopping this evening. Avoidance and denial are my two best friends these days... I wish they weren't...