Hold on... I'm having a moment...

These past few days, I have been thinking about how hard it is to think about eating or not eating. I plan or I don't plan. I feel guilt or I feel deprived. I wish for success, but act on impulse (too often).

Today, for example, I was up early enough to cook food for lunch, but i took a walk and then spent too much time over breakfast. I took my shower and headed to work early, since I didn't really have enough time to make my eggs... This meant that I had to go out for lunch. And then at dinner time I wanted to eat out again, but I wrestled with myself and made myself go home and cook. It was a struggle around food all day... and with only partial success.

So what did I eat?

Breakfast:

2 blueberry muffins; skim milk

Snack:

cherries

Lunch:

New Yorker sandwich (corned beef, turkey, swiss cheese, lettuce, tomato, russian dressing); small bag potato chips

Snack:

yogurt with raspberries and maple syrup; almonds

Dinner:

small baggie of portioned corn chips while I cooked; hot italian sausage sauteed with zucchini, onions, and cauliflower

Dessert:

kiddie cone at Erikson's ~ roasted butter almond

Can I get back to the days when I could eat 1 muffin and be satisfied? How about 1/2 a sandwich? Chips with lunch... fine... but did I need to eat the corn chips while I was making dinner?! But at least I made dinner (and it was delicious!) and I have leftovers for tomorrow's lunch. And, I did take a walk thins morning. That should count for something... baby steps...