Trying not to freak...

I weighed myself this morning... 256... my heart hurts to see that number and I don't know what to say or do... other than really make myself weigh myself every single morning... that's one thing I can do... I know part of it is because I have fluid retention in my legs ever since Chicago. They are swollen, especially my left, so that could easily be six pounds. But OMG! What happened over the past year and WHY on earth did I let it get this bad?!

So... I made myself walk at NARA this afternoon, despite the heat and humidity. I did two miles and quit before I got too uncomfortable. Goal: Some kind of exercise every day...

So... what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

peanutbutter and blackberry jam sandwich; milk

Snack:

banana

Lunch:

small bag chips; New Yorker on multigrain bread (should've eaten only half) Also, lunch was too late (2:00) so I was too hungry already... big mistake

Dinner:

yogurt smoothie; large salad; cheese and crackers; chocolate bits (there was my error... I didn't need to eat them and didn't even enjoy them. It was an impulse eat and a because they were there eat. I threw the rest of the bag away to prevent any more snacking... baby steps...)

May tomorrow be better...