Disappointments

Life is full of disappointments and I am used to them but I still don't like them or know quite what to do when one happens, big or little. Usually I just re-configure my thinking after the fact and adjust by adjusting my expectations. When it is food that disappoints, I hope I live and learn, but I don't always...

So... what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

zucchini and onion saute; 2 scrambled eggs in butter

Snack:

coolatta on way to Amherst... disappointment #1. I am disappointed that I got one and actually I am disappointed in the coolatta, too. I don't know if I actually like them or if it's their forbidden nature that makes me HAVE to have one... hmm... I need to think about that one...

Late lunch:

ham and cheese sandwich on whole wheat with lettuce and tomato and mustard; small bag of potato chips; frosted sugar cookie from Atkin's Farm

I started to set it up to eat in the car as I drove home and then I decided to wait until I reached the pull-off with the view on 202. Me... I waited. This alone is amazing... And I enjoyed my little picnic, too. I don't know what made me get ham and cheese, but it was good... and their own fresh bread, too. Yum! I don't feel bad about the cookie. It was delicious and it was just one.

Dinner:

mug of kale soup; peach

Dessert:

Monday Sunday at farm in Carlisle. It was disappointing. The ice cream was lousy and the girl didn't make it well (fudge at the bottom not draped on the inside walls of cone). And I ate it all anyway, even though I didn't really enjoy it. Eating when I am not enjoying it is stupid and I always regret it. How do I stop this habit? Why can't I throw something away that doesn't please me? OY!

Exercise:

2 miles at NARA before the ice cream fiasco...

May tomorrow be better...