Hmmm...

So today it was this hard... and tomorrow it will be hard, too. I have to say this so I can get used to the fact that THIS IS GOING TO BE HARD!!! I am going to face constant temptations and I have no "will power." This I know to be true.

So what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

steel-cut oats with 1 teaspoon honey and a little milk

Snack:

1/2 a grapefruit

Lunch:

pasta with meat sauce; broccoli

Dinner:

Cedar Hill Dairy Joy with Viv and Andrew

1/2 a hot dog; 1/2 a cheeseburger; onion rings; coffee frappe; one of Andrew's chicken fingers

Dessert at staff meeting:

one cupcake (test for Michelle's wedding cupcake)

So what was so terrible? I HAD to go to Cedar Hill. I am driven by urges and fried foods is one of them. I have habits that I follow and once the idea is planted in my head, it is VERY HARD to change course. This feels like addiction, a bit. I want to be well, but wishing doesn't make it so.

I was up early enough to walk today but ultimately didn't. I couldn't quite pop out of bed quickly enough and then it would have been a rush, so I chose to skip it. Perhaps I should have pushed through. I didn't find time later, of course, so it was another day without exercise.

May tomorrow be better.