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I am still working out how I want to use this journal. In the past, I have journaled my eating and recorded exercise, mood, trials, etc... as seemed appropriate. As my weight loss plateaued, halted and then began to creep up, it was hard to stick to the journal and I quit. I have tried returning to that tool several times, but each time it felt awkward and didn't last more than a few days. I've never kept a journal on the computer so it is worth trying that now here. If it works, great. If not, I may go back to journaling my eating the old-fashioned way in a paper notebook and save this for other aspects of the growth process. But actually I hope to combine the two and see if success in one area will support grow in another...

So here goes... a new beginning... again...

Breakfast:

steel-cut oatmeal with pecans and a cereal spoon of honey

Snack:

1/2 a grapefruit

Lunch:

Portuguese Kale Soup

3 slices havarti with chive cheese

Dinner:

steak and sauteed onions, broccoli, salad with avocado, a measured zip-loc baggie of blue corn chips while I cooked

Snack:

yogurt smoothie with raspberries and 1+ tablespoon maple syrup

It was a stressful day and when I left work I really, really wanted to head to Cedar Hill for a frappe and onion rings... but I restrained myself and delayed it for later. I went to Viv's for a visit and stayed until it was too late to go to C.H. for dinner. I thought about getting pizza, thinking that I could always start eating better tomorrow. But I have come to see that that is part of my problem. I am always thinking that I can start doing the right thing "tomorrow." Only tomorrow never comes. So I took another baby step and tried to make today tomorrow, at least as best I could. I didn't totally make the best decisions, but I did better than most days and I tried. For now, that will have to be enough. I didn't eat pizza. I didn't go to Cedar Hill. I came home from my meeting instead of driving for ice cream and I had a smoothie instead. And it was delicious.

Today was a start, but I didn't get in any exercise, even though I had the time this afternoon, if I chose to. I need to re-build my commitment to daily exercise, too, but for now it was an important step to begin to get my eating under control. Baby steps...