stress of family...

Being on vacation, but then having food expectations because company arrives, makes me stressed. I think about what to eat and what not to eat and when I can eat and who sees me eat... and then I lose all perspective and stress eat... Oy!

So... what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

english muffin with peanut butter and banana; milk

Snack:

coolatta and blueberries

Lunch:

mashed potatoes; carrots; green beans; roast beef

Snack:

potato salad; see's chocolates

Dinner:

scrambled eggs; broccoli; potato chips; blueberries

Dessert before bed:

chocolate ice cream

Exercise:

Walk to bike shop and ride bike home

Oh, my... I tried, but failed... but I will keep trying... and trying... until I get it right...

May tomorrow be better...

eh...

Not a great day, but it was a social day and that always makes it harder to eat well.

So... what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

english muffin ~ 1/2 with peanut butter, and 1/2 with butter and jam; milk

Lunch:

1/2 a 1/2 and 1/2 plate with shrimp and haddock, fries and onion rings; cole slaw

Dessert:

chocolate chocolate dough nut

Dinner:

small bag of chips; meat ball sub

Dessert:

frozen yogurt at Brown's ~ raspberry with grapenuts

Snack in evening:

medium starbuck's frappacino

May tomorrow be better...

blueberry morning

I went blueberry picking this morning and had a great time. I wouldn't want to do it for a living, but an hour of picking was a lovely way to pass the time. I picked 7 pounds of blueberries ~ enough to keep for myself and have plenty to give away. I ate my fill as I picked, as well, and they were delicious, warmed by the sun! I stopped at the store for containers and got a muffin for lunch, since I knew I was going out to dinner later...

So... what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

english muffin with peanut butter; milk (Thomas', extra fiber)

Snack:

medium mocha coolatta (I'd just gotten off the phone with M and was a little stressed. No excuse, but the truth...)

Lunch:

bran muffin from hannaford's ~ I just love'm!

Dinner:

half and half basket ~ shrimp and chicken fingers, with fries and onion rings; cole slaw

I'll likely have ice cream later tonight... maybe with blueberries on it!

Viv comes up tomorrow, so we will beach it and probably go to Mike's. I'll send her home with blueberries and maybe do some baking with the rest.

Exercise:

kayaking again... I find it both invigorating and relaxing. Today I went out to sea, which added a little excitement to the trip.

I made some good food choices today, but I also over-did, both with the coolatta and with the quantity of fried seafood... which I will have again tomorrow. I probably should've made myself get baked or broiled today, or a lobster roll, but I really had shrimp on the brain so I went for it. Hmm...

May tomorrow be better...

Veering back on course...

... I hope...

I have been away and I am still away, but I am trying to get back to recording my eating. I am toying with the idea of seeing my doctor earlier than my October scheduled physical because I am beginning to suspect that my weight gain may not be all about eating. I have gained so much and when I think of it, I am not really eating that much more. I mean, I do cheat... but I always cheated, even when I was losing two pounds a week. I've been so busy beating myself up about the weight gain, feeling like a total loser and loathing my lack of control, that I never considered that there could something medical contributing to the problem. And maybe there isn't, but I should eliminate the possibility and at least let my doctor in on the weight gain trouble... and the continued depression... despite therapy... God, I am pitiful!

But I digress...

So... what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

bran muffin and water

then I went kayaking for hours...

Snack:

mocha coolatta because I was thirsty and starving (after 1:00 sometime...)

Late lunch:

lobster roll and a few french fries (I should've told the woman no thank you, but once I had them I had to eat some...)

Dinner:

boiled hot dog, potato salad, cole slaw... I made the potato salad and the cole slaw was a light summery one from hannaford's.... very good...

I am about to have some ice cream for "dessert" or as a bedtime snack, whichever this might be...

May tomorrow be better...

Ups and downs...

So... what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

ez english muffin with pbj; milk

Snack:

cucumber and hummus

Snack impulse: dark chocolate mints from YT's (as I did evaluations)

Lunch:

salad with two cheeses (babybels); baggie of corn/blackbean chips

Snack:

mocha coolatta at DD after giving blood

Dinner:

somosa; rice; veggie curry; chicken saffron; naan

So I make some progress and then I have issues... but I am not giving up...

May each day find some wisdom...

Working toward vacation mode...

I am on vacation for two weeks after tomorrow and I am trying to psych myself up for it. What will I do? What will I eat? How will I feel? Who will I see? So much to think about and plan for...

SO... what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

oat squares in milk; peach

Snack:

2 s'mores in 2/3A (why 2?!!!)

Lunch:

tuna with pesto on whole wheat wrap; small bag of chips

Snack:

yogurt with syrup; strawberries (fresh)

Dinner:

brown bread with butter (2 small pieces); cashew chicken salad at CF

I don't like going home in the evening... I need to think that through and plan better dinners. Not only is it expensive to eat out so much, it also makes it too easy to overeat!

may tomorrow be better...

basic facts...

...and a few feelings, if I can stay awake!

First things first...

So...what did I eat today?

Breakfast:

ezekiel english muffin with peanutbutter and jam; milk

Snacks:

watermelon; chocolates; grapes

Lunch:

2 ears corn; salad; baggie of corn/black bean chips

Snack:

mocha coolatta

Dinner:

chips and salsa; 3/4 chicken quesedilla

Dessert:

kiddie cone (ha!) at Kimball's ~ black raspberry chocolate chip

So... how did I feel? Stressed and crabby, as much for eating as the cause of the eating, I think. It just made me grumpier, really, so how can that be a help?!

The one good thing I did for myself was take a walk at Punkatasset. I got a terrible leg cramp after. It was awful...crippling! It was a sure sign of how out of shape I am. I really need an exercise routine ~ walking, stretching, and strength training. I'm going to be 50 in April and I want to be ready for it!

may tomorrow be better...